So Different.
Is everyone so different, they can do things on they’re own? Is everyone so rare that there can’t be another duplicate of the same exact human being. If everyone is so different, why does it feel like everyone just thinks the same. Add more orginality to what? Yeah, to what*
I had an intense night last night, talking on the phone with the only person who seems to even give a fuck about what I think or whats on my mind with my problems that I can’t seem to handle on my own. I’m gonna say it out loud, Why is everyone just a fucking hater? What the fuck do I have to do to make myself feel like I’m not wasting my life on insecurity I have inside. How many times do I have to cry until I had enough. Why is even caring a habit I can’t get rid of. “You shouldn’t care too much.” But what if I care so much that its not a habit, its just something I am. I am a carebear. Haha okay that was pretty weird, but I do care.
I care about the enemies I still gain. I care about the friends I see each and every day. I care about just everything. Its not that I care too much, its just.. I care about everything? HAHA. Yeah who doesn’t. All I wanted to do when I grow up was help someone. Help anyone, everyone. Feeling needed is my drive. Feeling Unwanted is my weakness. Unwanted. Thats why they made a damn movie called “Wanted”.
But still… it just sucks. it really just does suck, and it sucks more how, I can’t even just tell anyone how I’m feeling, maybe because no one cares. I care.
