Not Listening
Man, Why can’t I just listen to those stomach turning, listen to those sirens, listen to those don’t do it, listen to my gut feelings and just fucking LISTEN. Man, I must be deaf because I can’t even listen to my mind sort out all of the decisions on my own. I can honestly say, I don’t listen to myself. And I probably suck at taking care of myself, but I can take care of others. I just hope and pray that everything turns around again the way I imagine it. I’m sick of tired of being a someone who I cannot control. I want to be the person I keep trying to imagine. I need step up my A game. I hate my grades, fuck I know I should so something about it. I hate being hella quiet, I wanna be malakas and hyperrr up the damn place. I want to listen to myself as good as I listen to others. I want so much things, that I’m wasting my life to say ” I’ll do it next time”. Hunny fuck, they’re isn’t going to be a next time.
