July 2009
3 posts
“Life: is too short. grudges are a waste of happiness. laugh when you can,...”
Contradict
Keep on believing your right, because maybe you are but I could be too. Keep on saying straight up shit but only because you can only say that shit to me. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings as well as your not afraid to hurt mine. And don’t say that I’m the first to bring it up because you were the one to cause this massacre between us. “I’m hella sad because I...
Subtitle
I remind you she has a boyfriend, because you really don’t get where I’m coming from. I didn’t even want to be in this stupid arguement. Honestly why can’t you be a fucking man and fucking call me and say it to my face. I’m not going to be the one to ALWAYS fucking make you laugh or always fucking going first to say what I need to see in you. Fucking keep my room....
Batman
Of all the People that I have ever gotten into a fight with or said shit to, you were still the one to handle it. And thats why whenever theres a problem with us… when we see each other its like it never happened. Thanks for the words of God, and the well thought out compliment. You truly are Batman without any super powers of your own.
June 2009
22 posts
Your choice
You say it’s my choice to be there for you or to keep picking you up. It’s pathetic how youmake yourself try to be someone who I know your not and it’s more pathetic how you taught me to not listen to anyone besides myself. When I realize it’s yourself who re invents you but it’s the people around you who give you an influence of what to become to do and to pursue....
Your Eyes Only
You can honestly give yourself credit for losing a friend who was willing to listen to more than just the same river flowing,but the waterfalls it ended up having everytime the same old thing comes up again. What are we? Married? Yeah I married my Favorite Person in the world, because I committed to trying to comfort you every single day. I committed to making you smile, and making you laugh...
an incomplete greeting
happy belated birthday. to an important person in my life. not that everyone is important to me but especially to this girl. she’s been there for me since i was born. we’ve been through more adventures than the wild thornberrys and we’re still as close as ever. this year i didnt get to write you a letter as i do every year or make your birthday special like sleeping over or...
left standing
This summer has taught me alot about myself. From being who I am. To wanting to be someone i want to see. i would have never thought how hard it is to learn that some things really dont go the way you want to see it. but it gets better as you start to realize its exactly how its meant to be. i know it doesnt quite make sense but ive come so far from where i was from who i was and now… what...
Karaoke Night
with the badddest chikks in da world. AshAmesIca. I love working with them argo love going with them to these social events ar work. Unfortunately this isnt the only event we had so far. But im hoping theres more to come. We had a hilarious magic trick guy and singers that were serious. I wonder who won since i left so early.
burning paper in my pocket
I would of never expected being sixteen and having to pay more than just tickets to the movies, money for clothes, or even some dolla bills for some la comida. I have to start paying for some bills for the house. Paying a car insurance thats not even mine. Buying someone else nice things before i get could get mine. I didnt realize i was mad about it or anything wrong with it. Until i start...
SD Came Here
Brother went to San Diego, Bummer.
However, a bunch of old faces came today. Dawg, Chillin wit no make up on this summer and that’s how its going to be done for these two and half months. Katherine, Karen, Katt? Idk. She’s my neice from SD, and she’s 18. haha Didn’t expect that. But its 12 in the morning. And we’re all still hyped up. I have work tomorrow at 2PM! So...
Sorry to Disappoint You.
Sorry, that I can’t be there when you want. Sorry that you have to get away from me just to smile. Sorry I can’t learn my lessons when they’re first taught around. Just sorry, To disappoint you. I would have never expected to be a girl so in love with getting hurt. So in love with feeling like everything is falling out of the clouds. Falling in love with a Man, who I’ve...
Baby Rush
I’m crushin a two month baby, he’s flawless, with mongolian bruises, cute big beautiful brown eyes, shiny soft hair, puffy soft arms and hands, Coming as long as a school textbook. Yeah, My Godson Mark Kristian Bayog
Faaave!
I have so much to tell you. And I miss you so much. Faave Have your fun fun in San Diego.. Before i’ll stick it up the ass! I love you bushkabada.
Hello Summer!
Summer’s here. Finally! No more heavy clouds of gray, no more school work that keeps you stressin, no more waking up as early as possible to get an early start of trying to look “your best”. No way, Jose. Still gotta keep it up. Still waking up early to go to work, still heavy clouds of gray in the morning, and forget about school work more like getting ready for another year of...
Thinking of You
I know I can’t always be there when you need me. I hate how you always nag me about me not ever being there and always complaining about everything that I possibly do to annoy or bring the worse outta you. I’m sorry. I’ve been thinking about you all day. While I keep chipping my nails, I keep thinking how you took me to yur school’s art show that day I got them done. I keep...
How Slow
Can A computer Load? I’m impatient at the cost of computer number 32. My HeadPhones are blasted. My mind is tired. My Eyes are dropping. And this Headache is growing.
“Lighten Up! Chillax! Stop Muggin & Fussin. Stop getting mad over nothing....”
– Less than 30
Cuando?
When do I get to see you again? All this silence was killing me while I kept on looking on to your Pre-Calculas math hw, and writing profanity on your phone. How could I fall in love with someone who can’t even love not only me but my friends, especially my best friend. I don’t get to see you very often. I’d go through boundaries just to see you. Its not in a Homo kind of way. It...
Weekend Solitude
I had the busiest weekend by far. It’s been awhile since I’ve done a Friday to Sunday Outing.
Friday,Jans and I watched UP with Rhodan+Charmaine, Rowena, Daphne, Tram, Ayana and Karl. I give it more than just two thumps up. Its a really good movie, very touching, hellla funny and it just has a sweet and meaningful story line. A must Watch.
Saturday, Was Jansen’s confirmation. I...
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKEY TRAN! I LOVE YOU FAAAV!”
– FAVORITE!
May 2009
33 posts
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are...”
– Marianne Williamson
Hypocritical Hype
Its funny, How I can’t get things through my system until I finally know it really wasn’t worth it. Well, you know what. You called me Hype, and not only this mind body and soul but other people too. So tell me, Tell me what is the problem? Yeah My second time calling you hype, but you should know out of everyone you should know I didn’t mean anything by it. Honestly wow, and you...
Finally Friday,
Two More weeks of School, as in School weeks I mean. Two more years of high school. We’re becoming Juniors next year a step before Senior Year and during that year, its just the preparation for our whole life. The life we’re going to have to face with God and alone. But we still see the familiar faces in our lives during the journey and I know that the last day of school on our Senior...
Mango Bff
Today was quite exciting. Fresh like a Mango,Best like a bestfriend, Friendly like a Ilocano, Irish, Danish, Finish, Scottish, Filipino and half white bestfriend. Forever like me and Jansen’s relationship.
Haha This One’s for you Mango Bff!
Probably A pointless blog for me to type in five minutues, but this guy is my MangoBestfriendForever. Who takes me to subway when I want to....
STFU
Your the most dramatic dumbest self centered fucking one blonde dead strand mother fucking bitch in the whole fucking wide world. Honestly, I can’t believe I’m even wasting my time even tumblaring about your vapid behavior. Swampp! Thanks for embarassing me in front of the whole damn class, but it just reflected how cruel, mean, rude and stupid you are. You can go choke on a cock you...
“I hope you like your tumblr sunshine”
– Mr. D90
AKN
Hello Alex Khai Nguyen. You have entered my tumblr. Enjoy the Ride. Open your Eyes. Read the Individuality.
Jansen Camara Abellera
I know I haven’t been the best girlfriend these past months. I know I haven’t put my all. I know that I accuse you of every punch of the fight we create. I just know that we haven’t been on solid ground. I wonder what’s going through your mind everytime I hit you, I throw a fit, I start to cry, I start yelling and I start getting out of control. I know that everytime we...
Happy Birthday (;
Yesterday, was probably one of the best Saturday’s I had in awhile. Happy Birthday Francis and Richard! FInally, the last of my boys turn 16. But upcomings Kevin Katap is next. I had a wonderful time, eating Kim Lee’s, playing Brawl, cutting off dicks with mybrute, playing mancola? with seashells, singing to the guitar, watching bboy battles, singing karoke and just chilling with the...
So Different.
Is everyone so different, they can do things on they’re own? Is everyone so rare that there can’t be another duplicate of the same exact human being. If everyone is so different, why does it feel like everyone just thinks the same. Add more orginality to what? Yeah, to what*
I had an intense night last night, talking on the phone with the only person who seems to even give a fuck...
Patching it Up Pt.2
continued.
So the wedding was pretty fun, they have helllzaaas pretty cousins, especially.. Uhmm. A hawwwtiee. But they’re all very good looking. After the wedding we had tickets to watch a show called, “Le Réve”. And it was worth the $150. You just had to be there, Its hard to explain it but it was amazing. It inspired me to be a better and more solid bgirl. It helped me...
Patching it Up pt.1
Left for Jansen’s house around 4pm with my brother on Thursday. My brother wasn’t at all thrilled to talk to his mom, but he’s there even when he really isn’t my brother.Arrived at Jansen’s and took on some errands with his mom going to Costco, Target, BestBuy. Went home to his house and finished Packing. Then we were off to pick up Jazper at his school. Picked him...
A Deeper Hole.
Instead of me getting out of it, I’m the one who continues to dig deeper.
Colorful Skirt
I would like to cut my nails so I can type faster and better for stupid timed writting. But I can’t because of the wedding. Man, its hard for me to just type with nails. Man I need to relax. I’m about to slap a hoe I swear. Well today, I have to go library and work on my stupid article because for me, its due on thursday. And I don’t think its that hard, I have all the reasearch...
StupidCunt.
Yeah, thats what My phone is called for its stupid general problems. It won’t fucking send my textes, which makes me hella aggravated cuz I pay for this phone practically 50+ a month, unlimited with internet access. But still, Its 50+ I couldnt be spending on something else. Reminds me, I got new gladiators a gift from Jansen’s Madre. Man, I felt kinda bad at first, but then eating...
Not Listening
Man, Why can’t I just listen to those stomach turning, listen to those sirens, listen to those don’t do it, listen to my gut feelings and just fucking LISTEN. Man, I must be deaf because I can’t even listen to my mind sort out all of the decisions on my own. I can honestly say, I don’t listen to myself. And I probably suck at taking care of myself, but I can take care of...
“I can’t let you go, because I won’t let you go.”